Thursday, October 30, 2008
At times, i pondered.
What is it i really want in life?
Should i follow the rigid path that majority of the people are doing?
Or should i carve out something of my own?
Till now, my thoughts are still pending.
Why do i always think so much leiis? Aiyoss.
So many NEVERs.
1)-I had NEVER successfully entered my ideal school-
Be it secondary or poly, it is always not my first choice.
I still remembered how much i cried when i was unable to enter my ideal course and poly =/ But what to do, life still goes on.
2)-I had NEVER officially savour the taste of love yet-
Though i had experienced "true love" before, but it didn't last long and it happened a few years back. Still, i'm thankful for the experience because i had learnt alot from him, my ex bf. I'm glad he's happily attached now.=) Sometimes, i wonder why can't i just reciprocate the love that some of you had showered me?..If i did, will i be more blissful huh?.. =(
3)-I had NEVER master some of the essential skills.
Since centuries back, it had been affirmed that girls must know how to cook. It served as a tool in gaining extra points from your beloved ones. Though i only know some of the basics, but it is not enough. There was once i tried to advance myself by cooking a particlar dish from a canned food and i nearly burnt the whole kitchen down. LOLS! When my mother got home, she thought our house is on fire. -.= SEE! That's how jialiat it got. Before you laugh, praise me for my effort yups =/
4)-I had NEVER told my family how much i love them, face to face.
This really takes great courage, you see. It's definitely not easy. Especially for people like me who are so mindful about image,appearances,behaviour etc. Furthermore, i am someone who loathe mushiness. Oh yeahs, you didn't see wrongly. So guys who are extremely mushy, goodbye.
Okay, back to topic. I appreciate the efforts and concerns they had put in and showered me with. Sometimes, just by looking at their cute actions, i felt so indebted to them. I am serious. If you don't feel the way i feel, then you guys are definitely cold-blooded losers with no tits. =/ So people, tell your family you love them now because i am going to overcome this pyschological barrier soon. HOPEFULLY.
Not sure why i posted this either. Let you guys know me better?
Random. I know.
I think it's time i start to appreciate people. =)
What is it i really want in life?
Should i follow the rigid path that majority of the people are doing?
Or should i carve out something of my own?
Till now, my thoughts are still pending.
Why do i always think so much leiis? Aiyoss.
So many NEVERs.
1)-I had NEVER successfully entered my ideal school-
Be it secondary or poly, it is always not my first choice.
I still remembered how much i cried when i was unable to enter my ideal course and poly =/ But what to do, life still goes on.
2)-I had NEVER officially savour the taste of love yet-
Though i had experienced "true love" before, but it didn't last long and it happened a few years back. Still, i'm thankful for the experience because i had learnt alot from him, my ex bf. I'm glad he's happily attached now.=) Sometimes, i wonder why can't i just reciprocate the love that some of you had showered me?..If i did, will i be more blissful huh?.. =(
3)-I had NEVER master some of the essential skills.
Since centuries back, it had been affirmed that girls must know how to cook. It served as a tool in gaining extra points from your beloved ones. Though i only know some of the basics, but it is not enough. There was once i tried to advance myself by cooking a particlar dish from a canned food and i nearly burnt the whole kitchen down. LOLS! When my mother got home, she thought our house is on fire. -.= SEE! That's how jialiat it got. Before you laugh, praise me for my effort yups =/
4)-I had NEVER told my family how much i love them, face to face.
This really takes great courage, you see. It's definitely not easy. Especially for people like me who are so mindful about image,appearances,behaviour etc. Furthermore, i am someone who loathe mushiness. Oh yeahs, you didn't see wrongly. So guys who are extremely mushy, goodbye.
Okay, back to topic. I appreciate the efforts and concerns they had put in and showered me with. Sometimes, just by looking at their cute actions, i felt so indebted to them. I am serious. If you don't feel the way i feel, then you guys are definitely cold-blooded losers with no tits. =/ So people, tell your family you love them now because i am going to overcome this pyschological barrier soon. HOPEFULLY.
Not sure why i posted this either. Let you guys know me better?
Random. I know.
I think it's time i start to appreciate people. =)
Only one, 7:50 AM.
