Wednesday, June 29, 2005

*be it the fact tt euu hate me or juz tt u r straight-forward..u cant possibly sae that phrase.it nt hurtful to others bt it hurtful to me.i didnt noe behind my back u r this type of person.it nt the first tym..it had been mani mani tym juz tt i chose to forgo.things went beyond wad i expected.!!!~tears fall once again.i seemed weak and fragile bt i tried to control.tried hard even to let u go bt i cant.there's no second euu!!!~i wan the onli u...it mayb wiseful thinking of me...bt which girl doesnt wana be wib the guy they lyk?i m sure every girl do hab their dream guy.u r nt perfect neither wonderful bt i dunnoe y i chosed euu.my sisters asks me gib up on u bt i chose nt to.coz i realli fallen fer uu.mayb as times goes by i would erase u frm my mind.!!!~i juz simply hate euu!!!!!!!!!!!~

Only one, 5:21 AM.

Tuesday, June 28, 2005

my day begins wib a smile in the morning.when reaching school so sway,sit down awhile onli hab to stand up again.onli abit bit colour onli and it realli abit then hab to go the other side of the parade square.were sent back home.bt my peeps and i didnt went hm.spray outside sch then walk in again.sae ''watermelon'' he gib sum nagging then joke abit can go ler.hahas..then gana anisa nag oso.haix..hopes tmr wont gana called out again :P after school went wib gen and zy to watch initital D.it was damn nice manz.edison and jay damn shaui lo.arghhh!!!~cannot stand manz.almost faint in the cinema.lols...no la too exggerated.:X hmm after tt watch finish le went home.then chat wib angel and zixin funny conversation manz.tt was we do everydae in the afternoon although the phone bills might explode anytym.kaes i tink stop here le.nid to do my maths. *head crack* will blog next tym.

p.s:hmm had a bet wib sum1 tt i wont hab stead during the next 2 yrs.believe me i will do it de worhs.lols...u gona lose!!!~

Only one, 6:19 AM.

Thursday, June 23, 2005

went to re-reborn my hair.hahas...look ugli bt zhiying 1 ish damn chio worhs.whee whee...waste my $.haiz...sobx sobx.todae saw zrz heess so cute manz.eye to eye wib him fer abt lyk 4-5 tym.arghh!!!~*shy* realli waste $ manz.then sit there fer so bloody long until i damn tired then the auntie keep doing my ears.wah pain ah!then went to changi mac study awhile.hahas done onli a few questions then pack up le coz i damn tired then i pull jenessa jie go 85 market eat.lalalas...haiz hate myhair now ah!!!

Only one, 4:55 AM.

Wednesday, June 22, 2005

hmm..once again i come to blog again.fucking irritated mood todae.firstly ish my com dunno install a new thing then mum asked me lot and lot of question.and tt nt the worst,i tink of him again!!!~fark up...urghhh!!!~i hate him and yet love him at the same tym.i noe mayb once u gt caught up wib a person,life would be utterly changed.it will be feel wib so much sufferings,sweat and pain.:'( i tried to forget him bt i cant.totally cant.i guess i gona hang on to him;the onli him.dae by dae i getting more and more weaker.due to the stress i got frm myself.i noe i m stoppid i noe i m foolish bt i cant stop myself from liking him.how?wad shld i do?-i m lost-

Only one, 6:40 AM.

Only one, 6:39 AM.

Monday, June 20, 2005

todae juz heard tt my best sister ish mayb going back to her old friends.coz her camp makes em stronger.haiz..mayb i shldnt brood over it.bt i realli cant help it.tt frz of hers had pose a threat to me.i always had been dependant to her.thus..me and her ish realli close.but i oso tink tt if our sistership ish close,we can withstand any obstacles isnt it.?mayb i shld let nature takes its course.if she realli wana go back to her own friend/sister,i tink i shld let her go bahs.after all me oso wib other friend and she let me hab my choice.so i should let her hab a choice too.so final decision still lies on her.haix :'( hmm todae went to plae basketball then ''mei you li mao de guy'' wana challenge me.bt i dun wan coz my skills ish lyk shit.hahas mayb 1 dae if i master the skill le i will take him on.hmm next few days gona reborn my hair le.so anxious bt scared thaT reborn lerr will be more uglier.lol..bt dun care la coz nw my hair ish lyk so messy and frizzy.kaes la tink i stopping here le.i will let my sister hab a choice of her.

ps:think carefully!!!~

Only one, 4:10 AM.

Saturday, June 18, 2005

Haven euu guys wonder wad ish the so-called right and wrong decisions?onli 1 steps will determine whether it will result to the good or bad consequences.X) at times when u r so irritated by DECISIONS,u would juz lie on bed wib a blank mind juz looking at the four walls.wishing everything would juz fark off quickly.and i mean fast!thinking y i would suddenly speak of decisions?coz nw then i noe decisions make a big difference in one's life.juz lyk my current affairs be it bgr or studies it took me pain and sweat to make the right choice cum decisions.mayb afterall i still young to truely noe abt bgr...but i would still learn it step by step.and now then i noe nt all guys will remain faithful.kou kou sheng sheng shuo hui deng yi ge xin ai the nu hai jie guo you xi huan ling wai yi ge nu hai.<- i muz clarify worhs this sentence nt refering tu mee.:)) it refering to SOMEONE.bt he gt the right to chose la.wosh him gd luck!!!~and behind this sentence didnt hold any special meaning ah.coz onli angry fer being so flirtatious.enuff abt him-.*punch* life ish full of waiting.mayb if euu mou mou de zai deng dai yi ge ren,he oso wont reciprocate.guess dis ish wad we realli called waiting.so...haiz.but if u realli wish fer it wib ur true heart i believe there will always be a surprise follow by.hmm..guess wad i wana sae de dou sae wan le.stop here bahs.

thankz fer all the encouragement i get frm my beloved frz...*smauckx*

Only one, 6:22 AM.

Thursday, June 16, 2005

lols...todae woke up around 4 plus.hahas kinda early rites coz going to beach wib ling.lols...it damn damn tired bt worth it la.wahahas :D.mit around lyk 5 plus ,6 then take taxi go.reach there was lyk pitch dark.*darkness* then sat on the rock wait fer the sunrise.bt no sun at all onli see lightness.heess...guess we went too late.we had nth better to do??no!!!it fun worhs.then chatted alot of things those crappy stuff.then went mac to eat.stupid service.girl dunnoe hw to serve.gib so few magarine.then eat until so full that i didnt even nid to eat lunch.hahas...then saw a few hunks over there.oppx :X lalalax...then went to draw sum drawings and wordings.whee whee feel so prud manz.ling oso draw bt hers ish she and her dar dar de.then sum of the drawing gana the wave erase off.lol.then zilian alot.all pic fail manz ended up 0 was taken.arghh!!!~then gt a grp of stupid malay guys..there quaareling wib us.bt ish FRIENDLY QUARREL.lyk frz lyk tt .wahahas so funni and lame too!then after tt proceed to remedial.bt went to bus stop and wait for e others first.bt before tt went library for aircon,book and abit of slp.coz it was lyk so tired and i slept in the bus too.too bad no pillow.lols.then when all mit together le.i went crazy doing all sorts of patterns and actions.heess...then remedial went fer lyk half an hr then go le.lalalaz...then after tt cum hm slp liaox.hahas...then until 4-5 hrs wake up.eat le then plae com.wow wow wow...isnt a great dae todae.noe hw to enjoy oneself.:D.kaes stop here le.oh ya btw i dun tink i still realli care fer the miracle le.hahahas!!!~

Only one, 6:52 AM.

Friday, June 10, 2005

todae went to plae basketball...hmm kinda fun la.bt so sway keep gana hit b the ball.Ouch!!!~it pain manz.hahas...den hab tu run here n there to avoid hitting it.life sux fer me!!~each passing days seems meaningless towards me.full of sadness and sadness.mayb it will fill wib happiness 1 day bahs.tt would be a long wait.yups...i guess so.everything ish a blank to me .even those beautiful dreams.it had been shattered.i guess i muz learn tu let go.yah i shld!!~everyone ish asking me to let go.so mayb shld seek their advice.UR IGNORANCE JUZ SUX!!!~ I HATE EUU!!!~

Only one, 10:21 AM.

Thursday, June 09, 2005

hoho!!!~me here tu blog again.hmm todae gt eng remedial quite fun la.bt gana malu by sum actions done by my grp members and me.lols...whole world noe le la.aiyax...stupid teacher...all his fault!!!~so paiseh.hmm then after tt went tu eat ljs...it nt nice at all de.fer todae de ljs it seems tasteless.mayb when one's person mood ish bad,everything will be tasteless and bland.nw then i noe.after finish eating went tu zhiying's hse.her sis was so cute bt shy too.then after tt went tu my hse dwnstairs play basketball.get tu noe 1 more new gal.she quite good la.hahas...then saw a guy that ish in the friendster.nt me saw ish zhiying.coincidence nehs...mayb he followed zhiying.ahahahas...thn played till lyk 6 plus went hm.hahas it was a nice dae manz.hmm guess tt i still believe in miracle mayb dun hab the guts to face it.i m avoiding.hais...life ish meaningless fer me.

___________PoLkA girlZ______________

Only one, 6:43 AM.

Tuesday, June 07, 2005

correction to just nw *tired*.pressed wrong button.lols..hmm had an enjoyable dae at the east coast park wib zhiying dear.wahahas.went to cycle for lyk an hr plus.toked alot of craps and bgr stuffs.hahas...then went to take away mac sit on the stone there eat.omg...the scence was so beautiful.the sky was in light blue and wib the wind...gosh it juz lyk a paradise.bt onli 1 tink veri sickening la.the stupid water.so damn dirty.lols..then after tt went to plae water and sand.build sth lyk a sandcastle then bury our legs.hahas...so fun!!!~then gt 1 stupid guy keep looking dunnoe lk wad.stupid ti ko pek.yucks!!!~then went into the sea and play wib the water.the waves was cool manz.lols...then went tu parkway ater all.shop shop around then after tt take away kfc go hm eat.heess...then on the bus chatting alot of method in telling the ''him''.hahas...yah whole dae was fun and wonderful.would be going next tym.kaes kaes stopping here le.will blog tmr.

Only one, 6:30 AM.

Only one, 6:29 AM.

Monday, June 06, 2005

hoho...me here tu blog again.morning went maths remedial it was lyk so boring norhs.then listen the aaron goh and friends toking craps so noisy!!!~and stupid teacher xplian lyk shit lyk tt.haish...den after tt went tm watch movie.watched ''cursed''.it was so f*cking lame.waste my $ onli.onli gt wolf!!!~wahahas...bt kinda scary la.used jacket tu cover my face.so onli watched lyk 3 quarter of the movie.lols...then after tt went tu shop.walk around the tm fer lyk 3 tym wib gen hubby.hahas was so fun.gt my upper ears pierced todae.seems scary bt the pain ish still alright la.nt tt pain though.then hl laopo oso go pierce ,she was lyk no reaction at all derhs.lols...i was lyk so freaking tired tt i almost miss my bus stop.lols...so malu!!~oppx :X then reached home...went swimming wib my sweet mum ,cousin n bro bt my mum nr swim la.lols..so sianz juz swim here n there.den sae hui yi.lols..so funni siia she esp her cousin.then came hm do nth liaox except fer watching tv blah blah blah.nw getting tu hate 1 f*cking gal.actually dun hate her derh bt she had tu mention ''him'' in her profile in friendster.juz irks me.feel lyk giving her a punch.stop being so shameless will u?get lost manz!ur face makes me puke!!!~ hmm mayb i shldnt be so bad la hors,u juz dun get into his life will do.i m starting tu forget abt e miracle le.it juz brings no where.no meaning.no hope.although i m trying tu forget bt i will still continue waiting till the moment i m tired!!!~

______/miracle exist???/______________

Only one, 3:42 AM.

Sunday, June 05, 2005

todae went parkway....kinda crowded wib lots of adults.then reached there went tu buy clothes...den finally bought 1 clothe which i tink still nt bad.lols...bt everywhere i walk alot of ppl lyk looking at me :X.mayb my dressing too...then after tt went giant.i was lyk an auntie shopping fer household things.lols...cant help la trying tu be guai kia helping my mum tu look out fer things.when came back home...then plae wib cousin lyk siao.my rm had turned upside down all bcoz of us.bt it was fun though.whee!!!~okish abt the miracle thing nw??lols...mayb in this world there isnt any miracle...onli hab dreams bahs.why do people often trouble over these things nehs?so vexed!!!~....lalalala!!~sum times felt veri tired over the miracle bt still hoping fer it mayb 1 dae i would let go of the miracle/?? we'll see bahs.stop here le ...will blog other dae

Only one, 8:54 AM.

Thursday, June 02, 2005

morning went remedial then onli do a simple compo.then can go hm liaox.find it wasting of time bt rather than nt going la.lols...then went to ljs eat...piang eh laugh till lyk wad.gt lots of jokes shared among zhiying,gen and hongling.they r so cute siia!!!~jealous!!!~then after eating zhiying and gen came my hse.gave em c my pic (last tym de) wahahahs.they can laugh out loud.then folllowing tt went tu plae basketball.nw then i realise basketball ish such a fun sports.starting tu get addicted tu it.lalalas...then saw 1 grp of guys so er xin tok craps sum more.feel lk boxing em.lols..then ask tkh go plae too awhile onli then go back le.so sorrie worhs.ahahahas.....next tym got plae bb long long de then call euu again la hor.heess then saw e dolphin bay show so nice.whee whee.lols tink gona buy e vcd.wahahahs..todae zhiying juz told me sth which gave me hope.whee!!!~bt scarly the higher the hope the disappointment will be more.hur hur...sobx sobx wad shld i do???confuse me...

_____awaiting fer euu_____

Only one, 7:15 AM.