Tuesday, April 18, 2006
i'm feeling terribly bad once again.thus,decided to blog to vent out all the anger and sadness.nw i realise blogging do helps at tym. =)
though nw i learnt to take things easy and see things in the big picture bt i still feel SAD AND BAD at times.or mayb i can sae always.another dae juz pass..my fake smile can be kept.i'm sealing all the troubles and problems deep in my heart. and yet at the same tym i had to put up a fake smile and console others instead.i neber regret putting a smile and helping my friends coz as long as i see em in their best mood and wib their dearest,i always felt HAPPIE..TRUELY GREAT!!!~
since mid-yr cuming..i shld oso focus more on my studies yea.so guess frm nw on i would nt played and enjoy myself too much.so friends ib ur see me in a lousy mood juz let me be alryte.i simply no mood to joke often.sumtym i juz tink of returnin back to the past.the beloved past i once hab.As i start to hab a more better thinkings...i've neber leave a dae in the world of myself.
relationship doesnt count in my age bahs.i didnt go into a relationship fer a long tym.didnt wish too.fear??unwilling??i dunnoe.no heart to put my soul into another relationship...in e end i'll be the one breaking down again.no...not the 2nd tym.i haben even forgotten abt the painful experiences i once endured.i'm still going thru nw =( i'm sorrie ...brought up this matter again.seems lyk no matter wad i blog everything will be back to the square 1.bt i believe ib 1 couple will meant together,they will sure be together yea??no choice forcing and waiting.it simply doesnt help.
so many many troubles in my head nw.ib i let go..there wont be me anymore.haish.i'm vexed.i'm tired.bt wad can i do???i juz hab to endure.....
though nw i learnt to take things easy and see things in the big picture bt i still feel SAD AND BAD at times.or mayb i can sae always.another dae juz pass..my fake smile can be kept.i'm sealing all the troubles and problems deep in my heart. and yet at the same tym i had to put up a fake smile and console others instead.i neber regret putting a smile and helping my friends coz as long as i see em in their best mood and wib their dearest,i always felt HAPPIE..TRUELY GREAT!!!~
since mid-yr cuming..i shld oso focus more on my studies yea.so guess frm nw on i would nt played and enjoy myself too much.so friends ib ur see me in a lousy mood juz let me be alryte.i simply no mood to joke often.sumtym i juz tink of returnin back to the past.the beloved past i once hab.As i start to hab a more better thinkings...i've neber leave a dae in the world of myself.
relationship doesnt count in my age bahs.i didnt go into a relationship fer a long tym.didnt wish too.fear??unwilling??i dunnoe.no heart to put my soul into another relationship...in e end i'll be the one breaking down again.no...not the 2nd tym.i haben even forgotten abt the painful experiences i once endured.i'm still going thru nw =( i'm sorrie ...brought up this matter again.seems lyk no matter wad i blog everything will be back to the square 1.bt i believe ib 1 couple will meant together,they will sure be together yea??no choice forcing and waiting.it simply doesnt help.
so many many troubles in my head nw.ib i let go..there wont be me anymore.haish.i'm vexed.i'm tired.bt wad can i do???i juz hab to endure.....
Only one, 1:41 AM.
