Sunday, March 12, 2006
hmm.todae stayed at hm.didnt went out.felt tired after yesterdae whole dae of shopping.
wake up around 12 plus den ate my lunch..watched tv all that then went back to slp.slept till
evening 6 plus.i wasnt physically tired it was mentally.hab ur ever felt lyk actually ur was awake bt ur couldnt get up or dun wish to get up??yups..i was 1 of the case.i could listen to everything wad my family was talking when i m sleeping bt i juz seem to carry on sleeping.wishing i would neber ever woke up. =( i neber hab a peaceful n happie dae these few months.ib i were meant to suffer in this way,god pls let me die.haiz.i realli cant stand.i'm hiding everything deep in my heart.ib it continues i sure break down 1 dae fer the same old reason.that ish y i hate staying at hm.my sickness would worsen.friends hab been telling me,i lost myself ever since the goodbye between me and pineapple boy.in a sense that i'm no longer myself ;smile could nt be found ;everything changed within me.more shag?i dunnoe.everything juz changed.sumtym i juz hope a smile can hide everything.so that my friends wouldnt hab to suffer.realli..gers i'm sorrie.esp to xin!!~
xin:sori fer being so harsh towards euu.though we r back to normal nw..bt hope when euu r viewing my profile u would understand hw m i feeling.realli a million thanks fer tolerating my stupid attitude and character.i would try my veri best to find back my smile alryte.i realli hope i can be happie too.=) let's make it this way no one truely understands how i feel even my parents.sumtym everything seem so blank fer me.i'm juz lyk a person without a soul.often my sisters n darlinks would ask me..''y would euu fall so deep fer him''?my ans was i dunnoe.i realli couldnt figure it out.realli couldnt.i dun hope fer anything much..juz hope that he would be happie always.seriously..!~all along i think all this matter was my fault,so though i had to suffer, i tink it's worth it bahs.it even worth it ib his smile ish found.i dunnoe hw long will i be able to hold on or continue bt i would try my utmost to find myself back.he is my only one.!!~no changes.i realli love him.so pineapple boy..plz be happie fer my sake,put it in another word bahs..happie fer ur friend's sake.at least it makes me feel better alryte.
alryte..bloggy stop here.goodnite!!!~
p.s:i juz wan euu to be happie lyk before.ur smile ish everything i wished for.
wake up around 12 plus den ate my lunch..watched tv all that then went back to slp.slept till
evening 6 plus.i wasnt physically tired it was mentally.hab ur ever felt lyk actually ur was awake bt ur couldnt get up or dun wish to get up??yups..i was 1 of the case.i could listen to everything wad my family was talking when i m sleeping bt i juz seem to carry on sleeping.wishing i would neber ever woke up. =( i neber hab a peaceful n happie dae these few months.ib i were meant to suffer in this way,god pls let me die.haiz.i realli cant stand.i'm hiding everything deep in my heart.ib it continues i sure break down 1 dae fer the same old reason.that ish y i hate staying at hm.my sickness would worsen.friends hab been telling me,i lost myself ever since the goodbye between me and pineapple boy.in a sense that i'm no longer myself ;smile could nt be found ;everything changed within me.more shag?i dunnoe.everything juz changed.sumtym i juz hope a smile can hide everything.so that my friends wouldnt hab to suffer.realli..gers i'm sorrie.esp to xin!!~
xin:sori fer being so harsh towards euu.though we r back to normal nw..bt hope when euu r viewing my profile u would understand hw m i feeling.realli a million thanks fer tolerating my stupid attitude and character.i would try my veri best to find back my smile alryte.i realli hope i can be happie too.=) let's make it this way no one truely understands how i feel even my parents.sumtym everything seem so blank fer me.i'm juz lyk a person without a soul.often my sisters n darlinks would ask me..''y would euu fall so deep fer him''?my ans was i dunnoe.i realli couldnt figure it out.realli couldnt.i dun hope fer anything much..juz hope that he would be happie always.seriously..!~all along i think all this matter was my fault,so though i had to suffer, i tink it's worth it bahs.it even worth it ib his smile ish found.i dunnoe hw long will i be able to hold on or continue bt i would try my utmost to find myself back.he is my only one.!!~no changes.i realli love him.so pineapple boy..plz be happie fer my sake,put it in another word bahs..happie fer ur friend's sake.at least it makes me feel better alryte.
alryte..bloggy stop here.goodnite!!!~
p.s:i juz wan euu to be happie lyk before.ur smile ish everything i wished for.
Only one, 5:48 AM.
