Saturday, July 23, 2005

hmm came to blog again!!!~hahas...last few das gana depression mode tt y all my blog seems wana die die lyk tt.heess...didnt went out todae as gt 2.4 km run.so bloody long bt luckily i manage to complete it.then after tt tabao mac fer bro...went hm bathe le then orh orh le.:P feeling exhausted.then after tt study abit watch zhen qing.so nice...although i watch b4 lyk dunnoe hwmany tym le bt i still watch.whee...common test cuming le.i guess soon i gona go into stress mode again liaox.hate it manz...bt then in order to get a gd result no choice bt to study real hard.N and O level cuming soon le worhs.hope all my frz get veri gd results in the exam.jiayou!!!~i still hab to wait 2 yrs.sianz...feel lyk quickly leave this sch.nonsense everywhere and problem bits and pieces.alalals...dunnoe wad i toking la.hahas...hmm nw alone at hm coz whole family went to auntie hse bt i dun wan go.hahas..it's at cck.can imagine it so far ltr i sit taxi vomit again.lol..better dun.sum more can stay at hm study.guai bahs?lol..BHB.*oppz* mon gt tuition again.sianz...got tons of questions to ask jeff/ah-bang.sounds so weird when i call his name.still remeber tt tym i sae excuse me to him instead of calling his name.so paiseh.:P then juz nw my dad's frz call i dunno y sae ty to him.wahahas i went crazy manz.malu!!!~kaes bahs i stop here le...blog again when i m free.*yep*

_the sky of euu and me_

Only one, 6:08 AM.

Thursday, July 21, 2005

i oso dunnoe hw to start writing this blog.my mind ish simply empty.these few weeks hab been studying quite hard which makes me go ''siao''.arghh!!!~hw shld i start writing?hmm...friends??sum prob of tt nwadays bt it juz minor prob which doesnt affect me deeply as i juz simply used to it.i hate lifee...life sux.y muz there be so mani troubles...juz feel lyk crying my tears out bt i juz wana control it.i m learning to be strong n i tink i m starting to walk down the road.steps by steps carefully and slowly.i cant juz seem to do anything rites.ATTITUDE SUX LO!!!~yuckx...hmm cant i juz hab sum peace n let me sort out thoughts,driving me crazy.where ish my real self?poor soul was there waiting bt real soul juz drift away.hate hate hate...i dislyk going hm...make me so pressure,sad,angry every kinda feelings.i juz wan to hab sum1 to be wib.ish tt too much to ask?- y others can hab the best of evrything bt me...haix.leave me alone!!!

Only one, 4:45 AM.

Saturday, July 16, 2005

now ish in the afternoon bt i wana blog abt yts thing coz td too busy then nr online.hmm ytd went to take part in a dunnoe wad race wib 15 of my classmates.went to pioneer jc if i nt wrong.had to wake up at around 5 o'clock as we hab to reach there by 7.30.damn bored at first bt slowly those games came out then it gets better.then the mr ivan teo took so mani stupid pic wana send to dunnoe where de.sway siiax.reach sch at around 1 or 2.then went to whitesand buy my science bk as i lost it.urghh!!!~after tt went to bishan shop.not nice derhs nth to buy.wana buy 1 bag at there de bt out of stock le.so proceed to parkway parade to go and buy.then when taking mrt back to bedok....veri crowded mahx then wana squueze in.then the auntie jump in bt then her bag stuck at the door she keep pulling and pulling.lol.....she gana ''jiam'' 2 tym.poor thing manz.then i was seprated wib me frz frm the mrt .she manage to get inside the mrt bt i outside.wah liaox eh everyone ish lyk looking at me manz.bt i tink the auntie more worse rite.hahas then asked my frz to take mrt back coz veri crowded after tt couldnt find her she was upstairs and i was downstair.lol....jia liat manz after abt 15-20 mins searching...finally found each other.was laughing non-stop in the mrt.attracted lots of ppl's attention!!!~hahas cant help it.after tt take shuttle bus go pp then bought the bag le.went to shop around.actually wana find the price of navel piercings de bt cant find.anyone noe plz tell me worhs.bt then nt compulsory i will pierce la.ltr my parents nag again.after tt went wib my frz buy roti-boy...taste yummy!!!~after tt go hm reach hm was lyk 10 le.bathe liaox then went orh orh le.hahas the dae was funny wib the aunite bad ''jiam'' at the mrt door.wahahahs..i m bad

Only one, 6:43 PM.

Friday, July 15, 2005

quite a few days nr blog le coz of the activity and homework given.it realli worn me out bt it okish la at least those stressness would not let me think of other unrelated thing.i realli trying hard to take things easy le.this stupid guy almost cause me to break my friendship wib 1 of my bestie.errss...he sux!!!~no longer wana think of him le.and 1 thing i wana clarify...i nr sae i wana be so-so frz wib euu juz tt i couldnt face it when i juz received the news.juz lyk tt tym de oink oink thing.u oso couldnt take it at first.*u* shld understand bahs.we'll always be the bestie and the rest of us will be oso.!!!~alright?hmm...i tink abt it veri clearly le.i being veri childish and foolish to hold on and causes me to lose all my senses.i aint siao juz tt i too addicted.bt i m nt addicted nw!!!~there's other ppl who cares fer me lots...so i wont hold back anymore.no longer.let me bury my love fer euu.as i wana start afresh...i gona fully indulge in studies.and mayb new bgr?lols...no la kiddin.bgr nt realli matters nw.furthurmore i have yet to find 1...lalals!i no longer stay.i m moving on!!!~kaes that all abt the *person*.hmm went tuition last week was lyk so malu.lols...first dae tuition teacher car tyre dunno wad la.so poor thing still hab to go houkang get it fixed.so sway manz.first dae asked quite alot of question.whee!!!~coz wana hab better results mahx tt the onli way.hohoho.kaes guess i shall stop here le.

-burying the past and move on- *love all my bestie*

Only one, 5:25 AM.

Saturday, July 09, 2005

todae decided to blog in the afternoon coz dun tink i will be online in the nite.hmm..ytd gt a bad news which makes me give up on *him*.i noe giving up would take a lifetime bt i will try hard and it real hard.i noe i nt his type neither he's my type bt i lyk him bcoz of the 1 words ''feelings''.bt now i turned numb and hard-hearted.i wish him all the best if he realli lyk tt gurl.i wouldnt force anything n juz hope he's realli happie bahs.mayb lyking sum1 ish painful bt i used to the painfulness.any cure fer tt?i tink mayb he knew it juz tt he dun wana sae bt i shouldnt probe into it so much.since he dun wan to noe it,i shld leave it there.bury the past and move on.tt the way!!~if i were ask if i hate him,i guess my ans would be no bt as fer the girl i tink will be a little.i noe i m selfish bt i realli cannot stand it.although the girl ish a frz of mine and there ish a series of same happenings happen again,i decided to juz remain so-so wib her bahs.i dun wana brk the friendship between me and her.she's a great girl so *u* muz go fer her.if euu happen to pass by my blog ,heed my advice!!!!!~i guess after waiting so long it time to sae goodbye bahs.mayb our fate ends here.GOODBYE FOREVER!

-ALL THE BEST TO U AND HER-

Only one, 10:20 PM.

hello.. testing testing 1.. 2.. 3..

Only one, 12:15 PM.

my dayy starts wib a sleepy mind as i slept quite late yesterdayy.woke up at around 11 plus.hab to wake up early coz going out wib my dear sis.didnt ask e others as they cant make it.:DD hmm then took mrt wib angel to town.it was so crowded.firstly went to find her dad as i wana buy things then gt discount.lols...budget la!!!~bt after discount it still expensive.heess..bt i lyk tt wallet so much.fantastic!!!~juz simply adore it.bt i walked 3 tym around orchard deciding whether i wan to buy tt wallet.hahas..siaox tired si angel.bt nvm la i tink she dun mind.:P she bought the same wallet as me too.whee!!!~oh forget to mention tt todae angel gana malu...but luckily onli me and 1 gal saw it.bt i shldnt mention wad had happen in detail.after buying the wallet ,actually wana continue to buy 1 more shirt derhs bt decided to save $ then dun wan le.went heeren after tt saw theresa and her gf then sae hi then went seprate way le coz dun wana disturb em.hahas!!!~walk part of the heeren bt bought nth.saw 1 guy tattooing...it seems scary bt tt guy lyk paralysed lyk tt no reaction derhs.he sway siiax...blogging oso can write until him :D then went to walk around again..went to taka to eat and eat.got wad eating fair then i buy the ''mo -ji'' seemed tasteless.eekk bt overall it still taste nice coz i hungry!~lalals...then pei angel go buy drink she veri kou ke.lol...after tt went to ''cini leisure' dunnoe hw to spell walk around too then went into more than word de shop buy 1 box to put in some of my accessries.dunnoe hw to spell too.the box ish damn cute manz tt y decided to buy if nt wont buy derhs.hahas..didnt regret buying either.soon went back hm after.reach home le then went wib family to parkway to shop again.hahas.nr buy anything bt it was a nice shopping trip wib my family orhs.hahas...hmm always enjoy every min and every sec spending wib my beloved family.they r the best!!!~love ur too too too much le .*smuack* times flies veri fast.so i spent the whole day shopping and nw the day gona end as i blog todae trip down.simply love shopping and buying bt i do noe the limit of buying!!!~shall stop bblogging here-

`::take care every peeps of mine::`

Only one, 7:35 AM.

Monday, July 04, 2005

i dun nid anyone wib me.everything went wrong.i would never cry,i wana be brave and walk this road myself.without u or anyone i could do it.i wana hide in a corner and let my teaRS run dried.i m sick of it.all those ppl tt i tout ish good keep hurting me.y?cant ur ever be true to me??i cant take it anymore.urghh!!!~there's no future fer me~i cant see it can any1 lead me?i m left alone ish this world.!!`i wont be sad and scare frm now on.i muz get used to it.it ish better to be left alone than to be getting hurt.everything isnt the same anymore*i m foolish and stupid.bt i would nr ever be foolish and stoopid again.hurting me seems alright to euu but hurting euu seems bad fer me.i wan my angel..can euu advise me on wad am i suppose to do?i nid euu..haiz..bt too bad euu fly away long ago.sori...haiz.everything will be my fault.and it ended wib a full-stop.no words continued.

**************left alone*************

Only one, 5:18 AM.

Sunday, July 03, 2005

whew!!~todae so damn sianz siia.at home nth to do.lol..nr went out at all.study and watch tv onli.veri guai bahs.tkh seems surprise tt i will study!!!~so bad of him.i realli so pai mehs?haiz..sigh!!!~appearance seems lyk a stoppid lian bt actually i m not.and i HATE ppl who sae i look lyk one or behave lyk one.coz i m nt ah lian at all!!!~lol...i slept veri soundly ytd.guess i too tired le bahs.think of so mani thing.haiz...i tink after all i shld let nature take its course.mian qiang shi mei you xing fu de.i tink i realli ''ai feng le''.i lost my senses since the dae i fall fer euu. :D wib euu my life ish brighten up wib colours.mayb i should let these colours disappear.-lost- mayb there's a girl in ur heart le..i oso dun wish to noe too.it better to be left unknown.coz there's too mani scars left by u in me.i once tout regrets ish nothing but now i noe i meant sumthing.in order not to hab regrets i bravely walk the way down but the way was wrong.utterly wrong.it lead me to darkness.tears followed.do euu wana hab any regrets??it all depends on euu.i will respect wadever ur decisions.coz i m too tired to tink abt all tt.scars do bring significance.

-tell me i not the one-

Only one, 7:12 AM.

Saturday, July 02, 2005

hmm...juz now went to friendster saw my bestie friend wrote fer me de support-ment.so bloody touched.thanks gerl...u r the best.*smauckx* and it helps me alot.at my saddest point in life..i still get the support from my beloved sisters and friends.Last few days some of my sisters saw the weaker part of me.i noe i shouldnt do that but i realli cant bear le.i noe it ish stupid;foolish and even malu but i never regret.To love him ish a torturement but yet i find that i m realli falling for him!!!~i oso dun dare to write out all this thing in the past but now i find out it better to write out.ppl out there laugh till u wan coz it doesnt matter to me.not even a single bits.but then hor the guy's name will remain a secret.i wana apologise to a guy too.this guy here realli helps me and cares fer me alot.frankly speaking...u r a great guy.!!!~i would nr forget ur breakfast and the mo gui forest.it will always be kept in the memory of me.if euu r reading this,i juz wana sae sori to u. *smile* wib euu around me i sense no dangers..i once tout to be wib euu bt i lyk another guy more.i dun wana brk ur heart..coz u r a realli great guy.u sae u wana be my angel then muz keep ur promise ah *winkz*.after all thanks fer everything!!!~ hmm...i guess now i would continue to lyk more.no matter what..i wont gib up coz i cant do it.tried before but no use so i chose to continue loving u :DD

P.s:i hab not stop loving euu since the dae we met and noe each other :P

Only one, 6:30 AM.

Friday, July 01, 2005

sadness filled my whole heart.ur words hurts!!~it doesnt mean much to u bt it carries a lot of meaning towards me.i once tell myself no matter wad obstacles moving towards me i will oso overcum it. bt now...haix no words can explain hw i feel.it is terribly hurtful.y cant euu tell me u lyk others...so tt i would no long be in sufferings.i wana get out from it.i dun wana be trap.the painfulness ish unbearable.i remember u once sae i m ''xiao hai zi'' bt u nt tt big though.u r merely a teenagers.arghh!!!!!!!!!!~couldnt bring myself to hate you.so i chose to wait and love euu in silent.it may sound lyk empty tok bt even if euu graduate 1 dae i will still lyk euu.coz euu means a lot to me.whao...my words sound lyk i lyk euu alot?bt overall i trying to tell euu tt u r the one who will be entering my heart and no one else :)) fate would bring us 1 dae.tears continued.....i m weak;;;fragile too!!!~

p.s:onli my beloved sister and bestie friends noe.so if u r not plz dun ask me who it is.thanks lots :P

Only one, 6:37 AM.